San Diego

So I figured since I have a few moments and I'm online that I would update my blog.. since everyone else seems to be updating theirs. I'm in San Diego for my ship getting some topside work done.
As to my last blog, she has moved out and we haven't talked in a while.
I have a new friend. The new HM on board. She just turned 21. She's hilarious. We're alike in some ways but not in others.. and I think it just goes to keep things interesting. Her name is Christine Moretto (goes by Chris, or Mo, or if you've seen Over the Hedge Manny)
I'm finally getting used to the Shoup. Things occasionally get stressful, like Good Friday was but for the most part things are going along smoothly.
Hmm.. I signed up for eharmony.com.. So far no really serious things.. but there a few interests including on former nuke EM who was on the Nimitz.. and is now a firefighter/paramedic.. :-)
I'm trying to think of anything else I would need to tell everyone but mostly there isn't much going on.. I finally enrolled with University of Phoenix.. and I'm taking my first course with them to finish my bachelors.
I think that's it.. I'll try to update this when something happens.. :-)

Dilemma

To all of you who know me well, you know that every once in a while I get a thought in my mind that I will just keep going over and over again until I've analyzed it beyond recognition.. well I've found that sometimes it helps for me to just talk it out.. not necessarily to receive any advice but just the action of getting it out of my head.. But before we get to the dilemma part I have to set the scene, as most of you aren't privvy to my every day stuff.. When I transferred here to Washington I met this girl.. she's 19 and new to the navy.. actually she's pretty new to everything.. she's naive, and impressionable and I befriended her in the hopes that I could help her out.. also because I saw a little bit of myself (when I was younger and more naive) in her.. since then we've become friends.. she's started calling me her big sis and herself my little sis.. and she's been staying in my apartment with me.. Now we arrive at the past couple weeks.. I guess my boring life of relaxing at home and occasionally going to see movies or such was not enough for her.. she's been spending more time out with some guys from the ship.. I don't have a problem with this.. as it's her life and her choice.. now we get to yesterday.. my birthday.. she was supposed to go to the spa with me and spend the day with me.. I didn't actually hear from her once the entire day yesterday.. I spent it by myself.. actually as my sister can attest, I baked myself a cake, decorated it, put candles on it, and called home to have them sing happy birthday while I blew out my candles.. all 22 of them (I forgot two in the box.. it was supposed to be 24) ..
Soo.. anyway here's my dilemma.. I don't feel like we will ever be friends.. never the less sisterly.. we have different interests and personalities.. I'm not sure I can trust her.. but one of the reasons I've been her friend thus far despite the fact that I wasn't sure if I could trust her is because I'm worried that when left to her own devices she will get herself into trouble by choosing the wrong people to be around.. if I sever that tie between the two of us, is it my fault if she does get into trouble.. If I know something will probably happen and then let her go on her own isn't that my fault for letting her?.. on the other hand is helping someone from getting themselves into trouble reason enough to go against your our gut feeling about whether you can trust someone or not? is staying friends with someone who is just going to hurt you by doing something like not remembering your birthday just to prevent them from self destruction really good?

garfield comics..

I get garfield comics in my email every day and sometimes they just make me grin.. when they make me really grin I get the urge to share that one.. not that those comics make everyone grin cause lets face it.. I have a very "unique" sense of humor.. but here it is one of the ones that made me grin.

ahh.. boredom

I am so bored right now.. I'm struggling to find something to occupy myself. I'll go back to reading in a little bit. My ship is in SRA (Shipyard Availability) Which basically is a time set apart for a ship to get everything that needs to be fixed that can't with us operating fixed. i.e. the generators, decks, big installations and so on.. we have no food on board because the freezers are being kept cool.. we will have no operating heads.. so they can do work on that system.. we have no generators and are getting power from shore.. so if shore loses power so do we.. ahh fun-ness. My space isn't getting any big installs.. so I've got next to nothing to do.. and half my division is in school so it's just a few of us here now.. in that absent of certain restrictions I'm accomplishing things I've been procrastinating on..
I'm enrolling in the University of Phoenix.. and starting a degree plan to finish my bachelors and then start and finish my masters..
I also have started the process of getting refractive surgery. Aaron just got it before getting out.. my first appointment went good.. I was told I was a "great candidate" for surgery. Right now I'm getting approval form my chain of command.. so far I know it's made it through my division approved.. the next three are the longest to get done.. Department head, Executive Officer and Commanding officer.. Hopefully I'll have that back at the beginning of next week so I can fax it and get pre-op, op and post op appointments set up.
That's about all I've been up to.. except recouping my finances from the holidays..

snow pics

Here's some pics from my playtime in the snow.. you have my snow angel first.. then me with my snow man wearing italian sun glasses.. :-) then there's my wonderful roommate who had never seen snow before and thought running was a smart idea.. she then ended up on her back.. and then the last pic may be kind of blurry but it's a pic of what she thought was a good idea.. starting a snowball fight while she was down.. Anyway just figured I'd post these since I've been saying I would..

Look it hasn't been a while and I'm posting..

So.. I hope everyone had a great thanksgiving.. mine was good.. I made my first thanksgiving dinner and I was boring about it and didn't burn anything like mom.. I even left the sweet potatoes to Jackie for her to possibly burn and she didn't.. although she said it was close..
I've taken up snowboarding.. I've decided that while in port during the winter it will be me release from stress.. I will of course have to find something for underway and the rest of the year but it's a start I think..
Things are going better.. as always, I appreciated the support that all of you gave.. It helps to remind me that no matter how much I feel alone here that I'm not really.. ever alone because as you guys are in my heart I am in yours.. :-)
anyway I'm just playing online and I figured I'd be different and post when it hadn't been months..

Been a while..

I suppose I should really update this for those of you who only know what's going on with me through this.
I'm going through a rough time right now.. I actually felt compelled to take leave when the ship pulled back in because I needed a break.. I couldn't wait for the three day weekend this week.. I took leave for five days.. Everything about the ship is stressing me out.. and for the last five days of our underway/in port San Diego I would start crying over little stuff..
I'm not entirely sure how I'm going to handle things when I get off leave.. to be honest I'm not even sure I can.
On a not so sad subject.. I have obtained a roommate.. she's 19, brand new to the navy.. And she kind of reminds me of how Angie was when she was younger.. I'm reserving the right to kick her out if she gets on my nerves too much.. but so far it's not bad.. I have motivation and help to keep my aparment clean.. I finally finished putting all my boxes away..
Hmm.. I can't really think of much else to write.. I'll be home for christmas.. I can't wait for that.. and I suppose maybe I'll have more to write when I'm not on leave.. :-)
Hope you all are doing much better than me.